I send the first text:
“Look I forgive you for any and everything
you’ve said to me and I apologize if I upset you”
Under the deep dark covers of my bed
engulfed in the sounds of a blue wave
I hold myself in fetal position
while holding my hands together,
prayerfully, head bowed, eyes closed
Inside of a cold, dark room I step,
two soft feet on chilling tiles
Slowly making my way towards you, naked
like I was in my dreams in the past week.
I receive,
“why”
I hold out my right hand to you
out of reach,
only your finger points to mine,
body rocks back and forth whispering
“please let me go”
we reach across a cold, dark room
where the windows don’t shine any light
“because I want to leave you on peaceful terms and let you do you
and I won’t talk to you anymore. It’s best for the both of us”
I whisper the soft prayer,
“please let me go”
and you keep breathing out
fog from your lips as the chill
of darkness holds your soul
suffocates your eyes
still pointing our fingers towards each other
you finally withdraw your arm
and my phone flashes:
“whatever”
I see flashing images of
Adam and God
pointing blaming fingers at each other
a famous image
staring back at me
Maybe, this is what it felt like
when God banned Adam
from the garden of Eden
The tears hold my cheek as
the feelings of despair
caresses my heart,
understanding an underworld
so tortured by
your shameless, unforgiving soul.
